My name is Rose.

Pardon My Sniffles: Personal Yupdate.

>> Saturday, February 5, 2011



Hello beautiful people of the cyber world who poke around at my blog. I can't see you but hey, I acknowledge you and say thanks for reading my updates and stuff.

So it's that terrible time of year when the inside of your throat looks like a strawberry and you drink more herbal tea then the Boston Tea Party could ever throw overboard in 1773. Yes, I'm sick. I feel like someone took a balloon and inflated it inside of my head. Ugh! Pray for me. I'm achy and stuffy and this odd colored stuff comes up whenever I cough--not to gross you out or anything. =P

So as I sit here in the quarantine ward of my house sulking and coughing and sneezing and sniffling my way through this illness I decided to write a blog. I took a 21 day break from facebook so the people I'm connected with there might be interested in knowing what's going on with me as well. So here it goes...

I've already established I'm sick so I won't complain anymore about that.

For those of you who don't know, I officially quite my job on February 1st (the day I started feeling ill, mind you). And so begins again my life of immense faith in the Lord. I'm in desperate need of a car and I have some bills to pay but God promised me He was going to provide all of those things. Sometimes fear tries to pull me below waters but I can remember in years past God ALWAYS provided my financial needs--whether through a babysitting job or some miraculous way I always has my needs met.

I know a lot of people look at me awkwardly when I tell them this. "Why would she forsake steady income?" many say aloud and silently. "Surely God wouldn't call her to do such a thing." But the truth is He HAS and I can't do anything but obey him. Honestly His desires and outlook on success is different then ours; that's why I trust Him in this. The scripture that has helped me most in this is the one that says:

Trust in the Lord with all of your heart and lean not to your own understanding. In all of your ways acknowledge Him and he will make your paths straight. (Proverbs 3:5-6).

I also thought I should tell you I registered to take four online courses at IHOPU to take the place of my time of working.

When I was seeking God about what to do concerning my job, He led me specifically to the chapter of Isaiah 55. Every word was like a piercing arrow of revelation and I knew that this was the season to equip myself in the ways of God.



“Come, all you who are thirsty,
come to the waters;
and you who have no
money,
come, buy and eat!
Come, buy wine and milk
without money and
without cost.
Why spend money on what is not bread,
and your labor on
what does not satisfy?
Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good,
and
your soul will delight in the richest of fare.
Give ear and come to me;
hear me, that your soul may live.
I will make an everlasting covenant
with you,
my faithful love promised to David.
See, I have made him a
witness to the peoples,
a leader and commander of the peoples.
Surely
you will summon nations you know not,
and nations that do not know you will
hasten to you,
because of the Lord your God,
the Holy One of Israel,
for he has endowed you with splendor.”
Seek the Lord while he may be
found;
call on him while he is near.
Let the wicked forsake his way
and the evil man his thoughts.
Let him turn to the Lord, and he will
have mercy on him,
and to our God, for he will freely pardon.
“For my
thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,”
declares
the Lord.
“As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways
higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
As the rain
and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without
watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields
seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
so is my word that goes out from
my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I
desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.
You will go out in
joy
and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and hills
will burst
into song before you,
and all the trees of the field
will clap their
hands.
Instead of the thornbush will grow the pine tree,
and instead of
briers the myrtle will grow.
This will be for the Lord’s renown,
for an
everlasting sign,
which will not be destroyed.”

Perhaps the content of this scripture applies to something else but the amazing this about the Bible is that it's living and it's God's voice that speaks to you right when you need it no matter what place of life you're in.

The verse that grips my heart is where it says:



Why spend money on what is not bread,
and your labor on what does not
satisfy?
Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good,
and your soul will
delight in the richest of fare.

To me, the richest of fare is learning about Jesus and knowing who He is. I feel all tingly even when I wrote that. I want to drink deeply from rivers flowing with the sustenance and knowledge of God. I told God it is my passion and desire to travel the world and do things for His glory before I get married. I want to fill my heart with all Knowledge of the Holy that I might be better equipped in the future to raise a family and run a household in the ways of righteousness. But how can I do that if my knowledge and experiences in God and the Word are somewhat shallow? Okay, VERY shallow. I need to take this season of my life to root and ground myself in the ways of God--I want to live beyond mere Christianity. I want to be counted among one of God's finest, fiery fragrant flowers. It aches me to even think about living a passive, under-aggressive life. My heart yearns to peer into the deeper things of God. And the honest truth is I wasn't able to do that working. I can work any time in the future. But now I feel God beckoning me to learn about him and experience coming up through all my wildernesses leaning on Him.

So yes, that is the in-depth reason I decided to terminate my employment. Not because I'm lazy, not because I feel no Christian should spend their life working and definately not because I have the demented belief that I'm this righteous person too above the working world. On the contrary I feel the call of God to enter this season of equipping and learning--entering a season filled with victories and mistakes. Trust and perseverance. I'm ready and willing! And I'm looking forward to it.

So I ordered my courses and books yesterday. I have six months to complete the classes:
The Excellencies of Christ - Allen Hood
The Eternal Glory of an Intercessor - Corey Russell
The Way of Intimacy - Matt & Dana Candler
Biblical Foundations of Eschatology - David Sliker

Luckily for me the first class they assigned is The Excellencies of Christ. I already own the Course Notes text book and I ordered my class book, Seeing and Savoring Jesus Christ by John Piper. You can read it for free online but I find I concentrate better with hard back copies so I bought it for about $3.00 at Amazon.

I'm a little nervous because in order for me to finish all four courses within six months, I have to double up my units. So by college standards, a class that would normally take 3 months to finish, I have to complete it in 1 1/2 months. Yikes! And I have an 1800 word final paper in my last unite on the Hypostatic Union (with scripture reference). It counts for a pretty big portion of my overall grade. I was pretty freaked out about all of it (I despise being pressed for time) but I trust God is going to help me. He said he would so I trust him.

I am really looking forward to my class on Eschatology! I've been having this hankering to study and learn about the end-times because I feel that we are living in them. I want to be prepared for whats ahead and have an understanding of what to expect.
As I look at the requirements for this college course, I really see God's hand working in this whole situation. I've been out of school since High School so this is really some major-needed preparation work for when I go to campus in the fall. I'm strengthening my brain muscles again and honestly it's refreshing! I'm scheduling my time with actual paper schedules so I FEEL more productive again. Not to mention every course requires 8 hours of prayer room time--whether at a local church or via free webstream at ihop.org. I'm really looking forward to strengthening my prayer life and setting a prayer foundation for the nation of Germany. It's my goal to step foot on her soils before 2014 and I want to establish a prayer life for her that I might be able to spiritually serve her as well as physically (however God sees fit).
Blash, blah, hah I'm almost finished updating. Hold back that yawn and don't click the little red X just yet.
An opportunity opened up for me at my church that I can work in sound production. Talk about a total God-thing! Yesterday was my first oppertunity to glance over the specs and get a small briefing on how the machinery works. I was slightly overwhelmed even looking at it but I'm not backing down. I know it's the hand of God working all things out for the good of those who love Him. So I'm very excited about this oppertunity. Even if I don't end up working with the sound systems in college I'll at least have gotten over being a chicken when it comes to trying new things.




Last but now least, my mom called my old ballet instructor yesterday and I found out he's teaching class on Mondays! I was so thrilled--he's by far the greatest teacher of all time and taught me so much. I'm hoping to start classes with him again very soon. Ballet has always been a hidden passion of mine so it's great to let it flourish a little again.


So those are my updates. Lengthy but important. Let me go find a tissue and guzzle down some more tea now. I bid my adue.
With all sincerity,
~Rose

4 comments:

Unknown February 16, 2011 at 11:45 AM  

He's teaching again!? yaaaaaaaaaay!!!

Rose March 12, 2011 at 4:49 PM  

I know, right? lol! Love the man!

Unknown March 28, 2011 at 11:12 AM  

i have the sudden urge to walk around without sickeling... heheh reflex.

Rose April 20, 2011 at 12:01 AM  

LOL!!! Dude, I do it all the time. Whenever I point, I purposfully push my heal out, he's forever branded that in my head. lol

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